My walk to remember

Spoken to...

2009-10-13T04:57:00.000-07:00

This morning before going to school to do some studying in the library... I kinda forgot to do my devotions... gasp!! i noe rite.. but my mom made me do it... i was awfully late so i was kinda annoyed at why i always prayed and like cried out to him and i never ever heard him speak to me... like why have i never heard his voice or why his word never spoke to me... Questions were tormenting me... making me doubt the presence of God...

And just as i was going into my car to go to school... I received an sms and this was wat it said..

Psalm 116: 1-2
I love the LORD, for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy. Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live.

It spoke to me... and for the first time I felt God's work speaking to me...

That is not it... jus now i was chatting to one of my friends and like she was going thru a hard time and she told me that her devotion spoke to her.. and she gave me the link.. I was drawn to read it and when i did... i realised that the other part of my question was answered... i was asking God why i felt so distant from him.. and this is wat the passage i was reading said...

Our sins today still do much the same. They cause us to feel a separation from God, from others, and from even ourselves.

God is just amazing.... breath taking...

~Blessy~

Feel Myself With...

2009-09-12T06:41:00.000-07:00

Piano...

This is my passion... I'm most myself around the piano.. and sometimes when i play i actually feel God there with me... give me the inspiration to play the keys... I realised this only a few weeks ago.. cos all this while I keep thinking that its the guitar that my passion is for... but now i realise that I treasure each moment i spend with my piano...

Like my dad was talking to a friend of his.. and the piano thing came up and like he was like.. she plays it when she is happy and when she is angry and when she is sad... He told the friend that the piano was my emotion corner...

Come to think about it... i actually think it is true... i feel most myself around the piano... I don't own a piano... but a keyboard is good enuf... it does have the same feel... so yeah...

But in piano i used to have this dislike... i didn't really enjoyed playing notes but this changed after i almost gave up on my mom's me taking piano dream.. But i guess God has his ways... cos rite after i told my parents dat i was dropping piano.. like God revealed to me sth far more beautiful about this and also rekindled a bigger fire on my passion for piano...

So i'm continuing my piano... and I actually am awed at the way God speaks to me thru the piano...

~Blessy~

Dream Car

2009-09-08T02:26:00.000-07:00

SO SEXY!!!!!

I love this car... i noe that one day... this car will be mine...

I so want it badly... i can't stop thinking about it... and when i see it i can't stop chanting "so sexy"

I NEED THIS CAR!!!

T_T

~Blessy~

SHOPPING~~~

2009-09-07T04:00:00.000-07:00

Went shopping with my family today... it has been like ages since we last went shopping as a family... Well atleast with me... Whenever they go shopping kans... i always get left behind cos i either out doing sth or got tuition... so yeah...

Today like my parent 20th anniversary so yeah... they wanted to like spend it with the family... went to KFC for lunch... did some major shopping after and before that...

I got meself new shorts, bra.. (finally got an orange one ^^) shirt and other awesome stuff... was so happy...

I'm like so poofed now... from all the shopping... i jus wanna sleep... but can't... :(

Got tuition to go too... Hope my brain can stay awake...

Gtg get ready now...

ByeZZZ!!

~Blessy~

What is going on??!!

2009-09-06T06:21:00.001-07:00

I'm so confused...

I feel like i am stuck in a box and left to look at things which i now realise doesn't make sense... Why?? is all i can say... never ending questions keep clouding into my head and i don't seem to have the answer... and when i ask ppl around me... they seem to be just as confused as i am...

I don't really understand why ppl change when sth new is about... is it cause the person is desperate?? or... what is it?? I don't see the necessity to change...

I love you like crazy... but like i want to noe... and the only person who can answer my questions is you... And i don't noe how to bring it up.. abt you not being wise with your choice after all...

Well.. if you think this is about you... then i guess you are wrong...

~Blessy~

The HORROR!!

2009-09-06T00:04:00.000-07:00

That was exactly how i looked like throughout the orals... i think i literally looked like dat... AHAHAHAH!! Cos practically everything they said to me was like a vague memory... like soooo WTH my face... i didn't even understand half the thing they said... All i noe i did well was smile like a retard....

Can you imagine that i forgot how to say circle in Malay?? Even my little sister noe wat that is in Malay... Even my mom so...

But i don't really care anymore... I talked.. it was better than Moc Orals... :)

So now all i have to worry about is writing Malay... nothing else... And i hate talking in Malay... i sound so not me... and i hate that... AHAHAHAHAH!!!

So this is the report of my Orals...

Now i'm going to go to a basketball match between the SAC and SAS boys....

Cheering for SAC duhh!! :)

so yeah bye!!

~blessy~

Laggin!!!

2009-09-04T19:28:00.000-07:00

Hehehehe!! Very Cute eh??!!

Anyways.. I'm totally sorry about this delayed blogging.. i haven't updated like in months... I was just caught up in other stuffs... like project, chatting and facebooking... and altho i had time for this blogging... i was too lazy to.. and didn't have the inspiration to...

Shows how horrible I am with compo's... in my O'Level Orals... The invigilator asked me whether i wanted to become a author by any chance and my reply was a straight, confident NO!! And my reason was cause i can't write more that 350... even if i do it will all be crap... :S AHAHAHAHAH!!!!

And the ironic thing is dat i'm planning on going to the Arts stream for A'Level and all my subjects require writing and analysing skills... Way to go Blessy!!! AHAHAHAHAH!!! And yeah... i guess i'll start blogging properly... jus pray i don't get lazy again..

In a few hours time i'll need to go for my Malay O'level Orals... Wish me all the best!!! :D

I will write a report on how it went.. kays??!! :D

I gotta go read my Al'Kitab (Malay Bible)....

Byes!!!!

love Blessy ^^

Spliting Headache

2009-06-07T08:06:00.000-07:00

I'm so totally suffering from a splitting headache!!!

HELP ME!!!!

OUCH!!!

~Blessy~

Sports Day

2009-06-07T07:55:00.000-07:00

Today was like our sports day... is like the last official sports day for me as a student of St. Andrew's... well i am not an athlete neither am i into those kinda sorts so i kinda only did the sitting event... according to Isaac (inside joke!!)

Cornwall came in third... we were like in close competition with the Macdougall... But i still love Cornwall... :D

Besides nothings new...

Free Holiday!!

2009-06-07T07:43:00.000-07:00

Last saturday, I kinda got into a feud with my mama and couldn't get ready for school in time... so guess wat?? I got a free holiday cos my dad left me... and i was too lazy plus late to walk... Mummy was kinda pissed... had to deal wif some scoldings and naggings... usuals... but everything was perfectly normal after that... cos i was able to sleep and sleep... it had been ages since i last slept that late... Lovlies.. should fight more wif my momma in the mornings... will get more sleeps... AHAHAHAHAH...

~Blessy~

Angel Beach

2009-06-03T03:12:00.000-07:00

Last Monday was a public holiday, so KOOL organized a picnic at Angel Beach... it is like a private beach... it was like da bomb... like had to wake up pretty early for a public holiday.. i was kinda worn out from the previous day... but was completely looking forward to it.. Shel slept over at my place so like around 7.30 we went over the Tan's so that we could hitch a ride... (hitch hikers... AHAHAHAHAH)

We reached the beach like around 9 ish due to some delaying... everything went perfectly.... cause i don't seem to remember anything dat really caught my attention... like we had a few songs to start off the picnic... and then sharing and then food!! the food was good... i jus stuffed myself wif beef... we were like stuffed to our fullest... dat when shel acted like a lunatic like she always was and cracked us up... we had the need to puke... but we didn't... we controlled the food from going up the oesophagus.. :D... LOLx....

I didn't really take part in the games... cause i was busy entertaining baby girl... she is like a smiley baby now.. she would never stop smiling... i was entertaining myself jus watching her smile... it was like so awesome.... i love it when i make babies smile... i get this satisfaction... HAHAHAHAHAH....

But i did take part in the tug of war... so fun.. i love tug of war... and it was the most hilarious one i've seen...... when Aunty Betty shouted GO!!! we all tugged on the rope and guess wat... we all dropped flat onto the ground... My first thought was that we won and was like wow the adults sure are weak.. but soon i found out that the rope split in two... AHAHAHHAHA... it was so hilarious...

But by 1 ish i got crappy... i was beginning to get cranky and all... and just in time Emily asked whether a group of us wanted to leave... so me and my sisters headed back home.... Well dat was about it... dat was how i spent my holiday...

~Blessy~

Splish splash splosh

2009-05-31T04:32:00.001-07:00

Just got back from an awesome time of swimming... it was like a last minute planning... it was like wat Shel wanted to do in a long time and we kinda finally was able to fulfill it today...

We were supposed to swim at like Sheraton... when we got there the pool was super tiny... and there were like ten ppl there oredy.... So we changed our minds and went to the stadium instead... the place was big and man did we enjoy our time...

I had a bomb... it was worth missing tuition for... we should have more outings like this one... next we'll prolly have a movie marathon...

And today i realised dat i used to noe how to swim... but not anymore... its like entirely gone... my swimming ability.. it was really amazing on how i actually forgot how to swim... And the reason my dad taught me and my sis's how to swim was because in case of a tsunami... we could save him... and now i don't noe how to swim... maybe a little... but not enuf?? AHAHAHAHAH... but i don't really mind.. actually... I'll get it back... soon enuf.. :S

So dats about it... i had a bomb time you guys... thanks for the fun.. :D

~Blessy~

Worship :)

2009-05-31T03:59:00.000-07:00

Today YDM lead worship at church... like yeah... this is my second time playing in church... Its like a really hard yet exciting adventure... Playing at church is like totally different from playing at YDM cos there's more standards and pressure... I was not dat prepared... i guess it was obvious... had a lot of things in mind... some of you will say its jus excuses... but really i'm like trying my best to be able to manage my time well... and set my priorities straight...But i guess it takes time... Atleast.. everything went smoothly... most of my "mistakes" went unnoticed... but i noe i need to perfect what i do... and relax... My face seemed very stressed most of the time i realised... but... i guess everybody makes mistakes... everybody has those days... XD

Best of all... I had fun and the people worshipped God... :D

~Blessy~

Ironic...

2009-05-26T01:37:00.000-07:00

If you noe me well... I'm not like Sheiela who cries everytime someone leaves.. like i can't seem to cry... its jus not me... but i cry for anything except dat... but there's never been grief as well... cos for some reason i noe dat i'll see that person again... why waste the tears... if you're offended by wat i said dat i'm horribly sorry... like very very sorry... But seriously...

Just now some1 said dat she's migrating to another continent... And to tell you the truth... i've like practically loathed her like crazy for my entire high school life... i didn't like her one bit... but when she said she was leaving.. it was sth i've hoped would happen in a long time.. hehehehe... I noe evil... It was jus ironic dat when she said she was leaving... instead of being happy... i was surprised to feel sad dat she's leaving... it was sooo totally ironic... never expected it to happen... But it jus amazed me at how i've changed.... like usually i'd jus like be overjoyed but this is like sth i've never done before... i'm glad to have improved... :D

~Blessy~

Last minute??!!

2009-05-26T01:28:00.001-07:00

I don't noe about some of you... but i find it really frustrating when people ask you to do things like at the last minute.... I love doing work... but i need my own sweet time... you can't rush me if you want the best of it... I already have a lot of things... I jus don't like saying no... but i guess the day has come when i refused to do sth.. i don't feel so good about it... but unfortunately my no has been rejected and it became like sth compulsory for me to do.... I'm not dat happy... as there's no one who wants to the task... and neither do I... We'll see how it goes... i'll be around to help if anyone wants to take it up...

Sometimes i think ppl should noe how to like be responsible and not to give it off last minute... expecting ppl to do it... i know dat i don't mind... and i noe i have sometimes done the same... but i guess stm... its annoying... frustrating.... and a lot more emotions i don't noe how to say...

Its really puzzling at how crappy i feel now... jus because of this last minute thing... its like haiyo!!! please lah!!! tell me earlier can or not??!!! i'm not like a fairy who has everything planned out...

Somethings can be done last minute... but some are not supposed to be.... we need preparation... especially if it involves giving God the glory...

~Blessy~

Finally... :D

2009-05-24T04:20:00.001-07:00

I've finally gotten the long awaited instrument... which i've been begging for... I can't believe dat my parents actually agreed to like getting me this... its trully very very surprising... A lot of you are like "Don't you already have a guitar?" Well here's the reply... I've got a electric... and an electric is not an acoustic... so please... don't torture me wif this question...

I've finally got a acoustic!!! :D

~Blessy~

Capers...

2009-05-24T04:07:00.000-07:00

Last Friday.. a few of us like went to capers to eat.. Sheiela, Matt, Mich, Em and me... its like becoming an every friday thing... going out like the five of us... So this week we decided to like go to capers... I was like happy... cos i have this love for italian.. yum!!!! I lurv pastas and pizza.. mmmm... my mouth is watering all over...

Anyways.. we like took the buffet... and we like ordered... everyone ordered.... once or twice... i guess.. sth like dat.. but i ordered once and it never arrived... until we like tortured the waitress for like more than four times... AHAHAHAHAHA... but by the time the lasagne arrive i had to like stuff it in as fast as possible... and also i had eaten a bit of everyones food... so i was like totally full.. and so sayang.. i didn't enjoy the lasagne.. sigh....

But i had like loads of fun... Thank you Matt for taking us out.. :D

~Blessy~

I'll always love you!!!!

2009-05-21T08:02:00.000-07:00

I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU ADAM!!!!

YOU'RE STILL MY NUMBER ONE!! NO MATTER WAT PPL SAY ABOUT YOU!!!!

MUAH!!!

Blessy

Back into the spell...

2009-05-21T07:18:00.000-07:00

Hey guys!!

Guess wat.. I'm back into the blogging world...

Hoping to do a better job this time..

Thanks Emily for your support... AHAHAHAHA... I'm kinda back not from my own free will.. more of her "forcing" in a way... AHAHAHAHAHA... JK JK JK...

Anyways... so i'm back and hope i'm staying for good this time.. I'll be like posting once in a while whenever possible... and when i've got sth to say... i've got a lot of things to say... but i jus have a problem of putting it into words... AHAHAHAHAH....

Anyways.. i'll be like going off now... probably like blog soon...

WELCOME BACK TO ME!!!!!

Blessy

Hellowie

2009-05-20T22:00:00.000-07:00

I should get paid for doing peoples templates. :p

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Hope you like it Blessy. ;p

xoxo,