This morning before going to school to do some studying in the library... I kinda forgot to do my devotions... gasp!! i noe rite.. but my mom made me do it... i was awfully late so i was kinda annoyed at why i always prayed and like cried out to him and i never ever heard him speak to me... like why have i never heard his voice or why his word never spoke to me... Questions were tormenting me... making me doubt the presence of God...

And just as i was going into my car to go to school... I received an sms and this was wat it said..

Psalm 116: 1-2
I love the LORD, for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy. Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live.

It spoke to me... and for the first time I felt God's work speaking to me...

That is not it... jus now i was chatting to one of my friends and like she was going thru a hard time and she told me that her devotion spoke to her.. and she gave me the link.. I was drawn to read it and when i did... i realised that the other part of my question was answered... i was asking God why i felt so distant from him.. and this is wat the passage i was reading said...

Our sins today still do much the same. They cause us to feel a separation from God, from others, and from even ourselves.

God is just amazing.... breath taking...

"Whatever I Say isall here :) "

4:57 AM

Piano...

This is my passion... I'm most myself around the piano.. and sometimes when i play i actually feel God there with me... give me the inspiration to play the keys... I realised this only a few weeks ago.. cos all this while I keep thinking that its the guitar that my passion is for... but now i realise that I treasure each moment i spend with my piano...

Like my dad was talking to a friend of his.. and the piano thing came up and like he was like.. she plays it when she is happy and when she is angry and when she is sad... He told the friend that the piano was my emotion corner...

Come to think about it... i actually think it is true... i feel most myself around the piano... I don't own a piano... but a keyboard is good enuf... it does have the same feel... so yeah...

But in piano i used to have this dislike... i didn't really enjoyed playing notes but this changed after i almost gave up on my mom's me taking piano dream.. But i guess God has his ways... cos rite after i told my parents dat i was dropping piano.. like God revealed to me sth far more beautiful about this and also rekindled a bigger fire on my passion for piano...

So i'm continuing my piano... and I actually am awed at the way God speaks to me thru the piano...

~Blessy~

"Whatever I Say isall here :) "

6:41 AM

SO SEXY!!!!!

I love this car... i noe that one day... this car will be mine...

I so want it badly... i can't stop thinking about it... and when i see it i can't stop chanting "so sexy"

I NEED THIS CAR!!!

T_T

~Blessy~

"Whatever I Say isall here :) "

2:26 AM

Went shopping with my family today... it has been like ages since we last went shopping as a family... Well atleast with me... Whenever they go shopping kans... i always get left behind cos i either out doing sth or got tuition... so yeah...

Today like my parent 20th anniversary so yeah... they wanted to like spend it with the family... went to KFC for lunch... did some major shopping after and before that...

I got meself new shorts, bra.. (finally got an orange one ^^) shirt and other awesome stuff... was so happy...

I'm like so poofed now... from all the shopping... i jus wanna sleep... but can't... :(

Got tuition to go too... Hope my brain can stay awake...

Gtg get ready now...

ByeZZZ!!

~Blessy~

"Whatever I Say isall here :) "

4:00 AM

I feel like i am stuck in a box and left to look at things which i now realise doesn't make sense... Why?? is all i can say... never ending questions keep clouding into my head and i don't seem to have the answer... and when i ask ppl around me... they seem to be just as confused as i am...

I don't really understand why ppl change when sth new is about... is it cause the person is desperate?? or... what is it?? I don't see the necessity to change...

I love you like crazy... but like i want to noe... and the only person who can answer my questions is you... And i don't noe how to bring it up.. abt you not being wise with your choice after all...

~Blessy~

"Whatever I Say isall here :) "

6:21 AM

That was exactly how i looked like throughout the orals... i think i literally looked like dat... AHAHAHAH!! Cos practically everything they said to me was like a vague memory... like soooo WTH my face... i didn't even understand half the thing they said... All i noe i did well was smile like a retard....

Can you imagine that i forgot how to say circle in Malay?? Even my little sister noe wat that is in Malay... Even my mom so...

But i don't really care anymore... I talked.. it was better than Moc Orals... :)

So now all i have to worry about is writing Malay... nothing else... And i hate talking in Malay... i sound so not me... and i hate that... AHAHAHAHAH!!!

So this is the report of my Orals...

Now i'm going to go to a basketball match between the SAC and SAS boys....

Cheering for SAC duhh!! :)

so yeah bye!!

~blessy~

"Whatever I Say isall here :) "

12:04 AM

Hehehehe!! Very Cute eh??!!

Anyways.. I'm totally sorry about this delayed blogging.. i haven't updated like in months... I was just caught up in other stuffs... like project, chatting and facebooking... and altho i had time for this blogging... i was too lazy to.. and didn't have the inspiration to...



Shows how horrible I am with compo's... in my O'Level Orals... The invigilator asked me whether i wanted to become a author by any chance and my reply was a straight, confident NO!! And my reason was cause i can't write more that 350... even if i do it will all be crap... :S AHAHAHAHAH!!!!



And the ironic thing is dat i'm planning on going to the Arts stream for A'Level and all my subjects require writing and analysing skills... Way to go Blessy!!! AHAHAHAHAH!!! And yeah... i guess i'll start blogging properly... jus pray i don't get lazy again..



In a few hours time i'll need to go for my Malay O'level Orals... Wish me all the best!!! :D

I will write a report on how it went.. kays??!! :D



I gotta go read my Al'Kitab (Malay Bible)....



Byes!!!!



love Blessy ^^

"Whatever I Say isall here :) "

7:28 PM